God's Love

    My mind endlessly sees the wonders of connecting people in different places that can serve each other otherwise never reached in a way that only God has designed to do...through us or to us or before us...with the goal to glorify Himself. Our lifestyle is wrapped around the Eternity of Christ Jesus as our personal ONE true GOD, living, and being in us to serve & teach & to do His good will. Here is a poem I wrote as God writing to me. In my darkest hours as I faced the reality that my future was based on my service to Christ alone no matter the torment around me, these words are what He said to me. There is a time when we will face to choose whom we shall serve. We must know God is our Provider, our Refuge, our Future, our Love, our Husband. We must find that He loves us so deeply that we can trust His every Word. Even when He says these following words to you...yes, speak your name in the beginning.....


Dear (your name),


I love you very much!

My love is unconditional, everlasting, inexhaustible- it never leaves you. I have known you from the beginning. I know how many hairs are on your head. I know your heart. I made you just as you are at your very best. The hopes I have for you are of only a great & wholesome future. Do you trust that rich assurance?

Do not despair at present circumstance. They can shape your strength, joy, victory & give you confidence in your salvation. Above all, our love together can flourish & grow. I will work anew in you, so you will be in My likeness forever.

When this world is lacking- & it will always be lacking- do not be surprised & emotional. Remember in your relationships to be continually self-examining, giving, humble, repentant, ministering, loving...& to be always depending on Me. Surrender the wrongs, serve because your goal is to please Me by ministering.

Be willing to learn what I have for you: to listen to facts, accept correction without justifying blaming, excussing, defending, or arguing...ponder & meditate to learn, memorize my Word & it will grow in you. It will sustain you.

You have My Word, My Spirit, My Ear...you also have my Elders, those who are in Me in truth can uplift you unto Me. You come to Me to love Me, to be loved, & to share our love with others. Your eternal assurance of salvation is not a marked time, or feeling, but a real & present living fruit of daily testimony! You will not always feel or see or hear Me, but you will know Me by the longing for My love which lies within you. You must know My Voice & follow Me in the battles this world wages with you. When all others find you unlovable, do not take it personally, it is but another deceit from the evil one. Never let that interfere with the unchangeable love which I have for you.

You will breath My Life & will persevere by knowing Me & understanding others. You will become more loving & more effective in our ministry. Do you trust Me? Focus & remain committed to these things without expectations of reward or of more love from people towards you. You will be disappointed, but not devastated; hurt but not despaired; provoked but you will understand & ignor insults- you will have peace in turmoil. You will have a self-controlled response, thoughtful & clear. You will say only what is needed.

I know the marriage & friendships which surround you. With Me you can be hurt, disappointed, & inconvenienced by another's despair, anger, defensiveness, & selfishness, because you are surrendered to Me. My love is working in their hearts, too. I can only do what these people surrender to Me & at times their choice is wickedness- but we will be there & knock. Rest in Me always.

Choose to forgive, not to remember wrongs, give good for evil, love all unconditionally. I require these things. Do you profoundly trust Me? You must, for maturity, godliness, lovingness, and ministry.

I do love you,
God

Stress Releif

Aughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Sometimes that is the best stress releif there is. Overall, my life is sweet. There has been this spiritual oppression espesially between my hubby and I. We have been open about it. It used to be blaming and revenge, but this time we aren't blaming at all and we know the attack is from else where. Its a strange thing to fight with the one I absolutely adore at the same time. So, love our husbands for this is very pleasing to the LORD. It definitly means satan will not be happy with me, but I remember where he has to get his permission from is the the One who is keeping my marriage of 15 years together! 

Thankful?

  How thankful are we?

I have had to digest what I told you earlier and time has a way of figuring things out. Not always clearly or exact but let's say just enough for me. My choice would be to keep the friends I like and see fit; or as I enjoy facebook, I choose who I want to find.Thank God he has a way of redirecting things. I do not always know what is best for me or who is best for me. A child has parents to do the dirty work for them. Like, how much candy is too much or what friends are not the best to hang out with. Now, I admitt, that my parent does not make those choices for me and I still mess them up! Candy or goodies during the holidays is way too tempting and I still hear myself say, 'I'll never do that again.'! I am glad to say that as I look at my life, things I wanted just didn't happen. What do you know, it was for the best. Some things I did get that I did want weren't the best for me. So sometimes do you feel like your Joseph's brothers selling yourself into slavery? Do you ever feel God has good in store for us even when we meant destruction? Boy, do I know so! God has connected me with the hurting people I know and that is because they are the best for me. They are showing me if we didn't care, it wouldn't hurt and, thus, in this unperfect world, to care is to hurt. When we scare and become bitter is another talk, but to become stronger and help others is victory and glory to God. Hurt is inevitable but hardness and feeling it isn't. I am thankful.  

Protected or Rejected?

Going, as the road does lead me yet I only see what the horizons show me. Now it shows me light & glory, but I did not know by where I came....

There is a biograghy of the Bible character, Joseph. He had powerful dreams as a boy, but his brothers looked @ them as power trips. His father looked @ him as his favorite. Sold by his brothers, thought dead by his dad, he was sold into slavery. He became the kings right hand & his dreams came true as he was over his brothers enough to control their very lives! He FORGAVE and stated that what his brothers purposed for evil, God made it good.

That is now true in my life. I have loved a family for 20 years, now. They were everything to me. I used to stay @ their house during the weekends to go to church functions and then it was just to be part of them. There was 3 years with them & 2 years we moved to different states. I married & they moved where I was & happiness for 4 years... then... the mom & dad have one of their grandkids get molested! It was not resolved by the accused disappearing & thus bitterness set in. They disowned the chuch & all those in it including me & my family! 2 weeks later I had #3 child & no congrads from them. I was now not exsistent. As Joseph brothers, they meant it for punishment for nothing I did, but GOD used it to remove us from their twisted future of family insest, divorce, abuse, adultery, murder. I just was updated 10 years later with no clue of their lives previously. The death of whom was my brother and husbands closest friend... I am speachless. As Joseph I love them all still so deeply. Though, I am convinced that the statement is true... God used the seperation for good. We have been nothing but bleessed from their presence. What situation in your life can you relate this story to?

MY FIRST ENTRY....

THIS BLOG WAS GOING TO BE SOMETHING THAT I COULDNT GET TOGETHER. MY BESTEST FRIEND PUT THAT TOGETHER AND I THOUGHT, WELL LETS SEE WHAT HAPPENS IF I JUST TYPE AT THIS ONE.

RIGHT NOW I AM AT A STAND STILL...IF THATS POSSIBLE. I BELIEVE THAT WE CANT BE THAT STILL... THE WORLD IS STILL TURNING, PEOPLE ARE STILL TALKING, I AM STILL RESPONDING, AND THAT IS WHERE I SEEM SO FRUSTRATED AT MYSELF. I KNOW WHAT I SHOULD SAY TO BE UPLIFTING AND LOVING AND KIND AND I DONT!

WE HAVE BEEN HAVING A 6 WEEK BIBLE STUDY AT OUR HOUSE FOR 2 OF THOSE 6. WE ARE READING PHILIPIANS. WE ARE IN AWE AT PAULS ABILITY TO REJOICE IN THE CIRCUMSTANCE OF JAIL AND FUTURE OF DEATH. WE TALK ABOUT HIS EXAMPLE OF UNSELFISHNESS AND LOVE TO OTHERS. SOMEONE STATED HOW PAUL MUST HAVE THE BITTER REMORSE THAT HE MURDERED SO MANY PEOPLE BEFORE HE WAS BORN AGAIN. I REMARKED THAT IT IS LIKE THE LADY AT JESUS FEET, WEEPING, AND KISSING HIM. THE SURROUNDING ARE DISCUSTED WITH HER PUBLIC DISPLAY. JESUS SAYS BECAUSE SHE IS FORGIVEN MUCH, SHE LOVES MUCH AND I SEE THAT THERE MUST BE AN OPPOSITE THAT OTHERS DONT LOVE MUCH; THAT THERE ARE DIFFERENT ABILITIES TO LOVE. THE RESPONSE BY ALL WAS THAT WE ARE ALL SINNERS AND CHRIST HAD TO DIE THE SAME DEATH FOR EVERY ONE OF US NO MATTER THE SIZE OF SIN. CONCLUDING THAT WE ARE ALL THE LADY AT JESUS FEET. THEN, WHO ARE THE ONES HES TALKING TO? WHAT DO YOU THINK?